-----
She was flung savagely on the ground, jumped on and slapped. Her shirt
was
ripped open, shredded, and yanked off. He pushed his hands roughly
over her
encased breasts. Squeezing them viciously, he breathed in deeply.
She stared up into his eyes - he looked at her quickly, stopping his
actions
for a second of a second in time. He looked away again, concentrating
on her
body, just a vessel of his pleasure.
The straps of the black material snapped in his strong hands. Her nipples
betrayed her struggles to get away, he stared down at her lovely globes,
kneading them with a desire only found in someone who lived for nights
-
nights of passion, nights of death, nights of heartache - he could
hear her
heart pounding.
He lifted himself off her, just enough to push the long sheer skirt
down her
hips and past her knees. A wave of surprise flashed through his
passion-filled eyes as he saw the fruits of his labor awaiting him.
No
panties, just pure innocent flesh, waiting for his penetration and
release.
He pried her knees apart with experience and forced himself between
them.
She stared with wide eyes, ready for everything he was willing to give
her,
she knew he was going to take it and escape was not an option. She
clamped
her mouth shut as he pulled out his throbbing member, eyes half close
with
desire as she lay before him.
He pushed himself to her opening - teasing her with just the tip, feeling
her juices spill out and mix with his, their smells of arousal filling
the
night air and dancing in the moonlight.
She held her breath as he pushed the head in her tight, hot box. Her
pussy
opened for him, prepared to be shoved into.
He leaned down, close to her ear and whispered. "Just breathe."
She exhaled as he thrust into her to the hilt, her head snapped back,
neck
exposed. He took advantage of the position, holding himself in her,
not
moving. He kissed her neck, the sensitive place where shoulder met
neck and
passion was unyielding. She moaned.
He pulled back, almost all the way out before shoving in again. He reached
behind her and pulled her legs onto his shoulders, giving him complete
access to her, her most private places were now his.
She was filled with lust, eyes closed, she met his strokes with her
own
needy, passionate thrusts. Her breathing matched the labor the two
made.
Sweat trickled down the valley of her breasts.
He watched the moisture fall from her neck down between her breasts.
He fell
forward from his own action, licked the sweat and moved his mouth to
her
hard, alert nipple. He sucked like a baby taking a drink from his mother.
She held his face to her breast, letting him switch between the two.
She
knew she was close, he was too, she could see it in his eyes when he
looked
up at her.
He tensed as the moment approached. Stopping to tease her, to make her
scream and beg for release. His eyes gleamed with desire and hatred.
He
pushed the red strands from her face so he could see her complete submission
to him, he was overwhelmed with power and arousal.
Her moans of protest paid off. He thrust into her with renewed enthusiasm,
ready to take them over the edge. The moment was so close she could
feel it,
a few more strokes and everything in the world would be hers, the moon,
the
stars, everything in the big, black sky over her head would sparkle
more
brilliantly than anything she had ever seen.
The passion mounted as he felt his time approach. He shoved himself
deeply
and yelled as he released himself into her. He shook involuntarily,
eyes
squeezed shut as the feelings washed over him.
Sublime bliss. She forced her eyes open as she came, she made herself
stare
at the stars. They flashed brightly above her head, illuminating to
almost
blindness. The sky shook in front of her, changing from black to white,
everything was white, except the figure in front of her. The one who
had
given her the most intense feelings she had ever experienced in her
life.
The stars dimmed and the sky darkened. The night was peaceful.
She didn't feel him pull out and lie next to him until she turned her
sore
neck to face him. Everything in her body ached, she was spent and tired
and
wanted nothing more to sleep for a thousand years and one more.
He saw her tense and hold her breath as he reached to touch her face,
his
hand shaking from the feelings that still ran through his body like
electricity. He smoothed her burning, moist flesh.
"Just breathe." He whispered.
-----
-----
Willow wrapped her arms tightly across her abdomen, trying to discreetly
hide the purple bruise on the side of her face. After the raping, Spike
had
left, leaving her naked and battered in the cemetery.
She blinked the tears away, the moment of passion had been quickly replaced
with shock when she realized what had happened. Facing her friends
scared
her more than anything in the world. She knew they would insist on
hearing
the entire story, but she wasn't sure she could tell it. Willow sighed
and
knocked on Giles' door.
Laughter slipped through the cracks of the heavy door, she glanced in
the
window. Her friends were sitting around Giles' bachelor pad, books
open
around them, laughing as Xander animatedly told a story, gesturing
wildly
with a potato chip in his hand. Even Angel, who sat with his hand lightly
on
Buffy's back, joined in the laughter, a rare of display of amusement.
Her
grief took over and she turned to leave.
Angel couldn't help but laugh at Xander, the boy irritated him, but
never
failed to regale the group with silly stories. He glanced down at Buffy,
her
face lit up with joy. Oz sat on the floor, a faint smile traced over
his
lips. Xander's demon-turned-human girlfriend, Anya, sat slightly apart
from
the group, staring adoringly up at him. Giles leaned against the doorway
to
the kitchen, book in hand, but closed. Everyone was relaxed and comfortable.
A presence outside forced Angel to cast his eyes to the window, he saw
the
flash of red hair walk step off the doorstep and cross the small courtyard.
He leaned in and whispered to Buffy that he was going to get some air.
She
nodded and smiled up at him, squeezing his hand. The tired Slayer turned
her
attention back to Xander and laughed.
Angel slipped out the front door, closing it quietly behind him.
"Willow."
Willow stopped, halfway up the stairs, she kept her back to him.
"Where are you going? Xander's telling stories...and there are
refreshments." Angel said uncomfortably.
The red hair nodded twice.
Angel walked to Willow, reaching a hand out to her. "Is something wrong?
Do
you want me to get Buffy?"
She shook her head.
He touched her shoulder, gently turning her around. She gazed at her
feet,
hand covering the bruise that covered a good part of her right cheek.
Willow
winced as he reached up to pull her hand away.
Angel spoke to her in a soothing tone. "Willow? If you don't want me
to get
Buffy, you have to tell me what's wrong. I'll try my best to make it
right."
Before she could answer, he drew her arm away from her face, revealing
the
injury.
He felt the anger rise within him, the demon coming through, the piece
of
him that fought to protect the helpless and innocent. As Angelus, he
had
tortured Willow, but as Angel, he couldn't fathom why anyone would
want to
hurt the ever-genuine and caring girl.
"Who did this to you? How did this happen?"
The tears came, falling hard and fast. She gasped for breath in between
sobs.
"He..." She tried to control her cries enough to be coherent. "He beat
me.
In the cemetery."
"Who did? Who beat you in the cemetery?" Angel wiped the unbruised side
of
her face with the back of his hand.
"He, he did things." She couldn't bring herself to admit the whole truth
to
Angel, but realized she must, it humiliated her to think about the
things
she had done with Spike the night before in the abandoned cemetery.
The way
part of her had enjoyed it and even encouraged it.
"Did what things? I know it's hard, but you have to tell me."
"He raped me." Willow whispered. "I was walking home and he grabbed
me and
pulled me into the cemetery and ripped my clothes and did things to
me..."
Angel felt the corners of his soul crack.
-----
"Angel...what's going on? Willow?" Buffy stepped outside. "Oh, God,
Will,
what happened?"
Willow stood still as a statue. After admitting to Angel of the rape,
she
had shut herself down, unmoving, unresponding, just being.
"She was raped. In the cemetery." Angel informed Buffy in a hushed tone.
Buffy's face contorted in confusion, she felt the anger surge through
her.
She seethed at the news, keeping her composure was a struggle. "Who?
Who did
this?"
"I don't know, she won't say. She's in shock. Buffy, I know you're upset,
I
am, too, but you have to stay calm."
The two glanced over at her. Willow stood staring at the moon. Angel
took
her arm and gently led her into the apartment.
-----
"So, what's the plan? How do we find this guy?" Xander asked, staring
at
Willow nervously.
She hadn't moved since Angel and Buffy had brought her inside and relayed
the information. She just sat and gazed at the moon framed in the window.
"Well..." Buffy started, slipping a strand of hair behind her ear. "I
don't
see what we can do until Willow's ready to talk about it."
"That's a good idea." Oz spoke up. He stood away from the group, facing
the
wall. "Let's sit around and do nothing while my girlfriend is fucking
raped
in a cemetery. This is bullshit, Buffy, and you know it. We have to
do some
shit or I'll do it myself."
"I wish I was still an avenging demon, then I could rip his lungs out
and
shape them like balloon people." Anya added as the entire group erupted
into
argument.
"I want the moon." Willow murmured, unable to be heard over the din.
"And
the stars and the sky." She whispered, hugging herself tightly.
Her friends fought on as the redhead silently slipped out unnoticed,
leaving
the group to their own devices.
-----
Willow walked all the way without feeling her feet touch the ground.
All she
felt was the agony of her injuries, but the biggest pain was the dull
throbbing in her heart. Her conscience screamed at her as she let the
eerie
environment consume her. She knew it, she could feel the presence inside
her, it was a sharp twinge that got stronger as she approached.
A wisp of smoke swirled around her, she felt the coolness on the back
of her
neck. She closed her eyes and breathed in deeply, steadying her shaking
legs.
"I knew you'd come back." He whispered.
-----
"What do you want?"
"What do I want? What do you want? You're the one that came."
"You were waiting for me."
"I knew you'd come."
"Why? How?"
"You can't stay away."
"You hurt me."
"Not enough."
"You hate me...why did you make love to me?"
"Make love to you? You're so naive. That wasn't love, it was lust, not
even.
It was frustration. Frustration taken out on the closest chit that
would
give it away."
"I'm more than that."
Sparks flew through the air with a flick of his wrist, the cigarette
glowed
in the dark cemetery. Her face tilted to the moon.
"The moon is pretty tonight."
"I don't look at it."
"Why not?"
"Why should I?"
"You answer questions with questions, why?"
"So do you."
"What do you want?"
"I don't want anything."
"Do you want me?"
"No. I don't need you. I don't need anyone."
"That's not true. Everyone needs somebody. You're vulnerable."
"Vulnerable? I could snap your neck from where I stand."
"You wouldn't."
"Why the bloody hell wouldn't I?"
"You're vulnerable."
"Damnit. You repeat everything, do you?"
"What do you want?"
Their eyes met. He turned the question around on her.
"What do you want?"
"I don't know. Things have changed. What you did... Things have changed."
"Things always change."
"Philosophy. Never would have guessed. You're hard to figure out."
"Don't try. You wouldn't get far. I'd kill you."
"Why?"
"I don't want to be figured out."
"You already have been."
"What do you want?"
"I don't know."
"I get it, things have changed. We're going around in circles."
"Everything goes in circles."
"Very phili-bloody-sophical. One more time, what do you want?"
She stared at him intensely, not pulling her gaze from his.
"I want the moon. I want the sky."
"What for?"
"To have."
"You don't want much."
"I want the stars."
"The stars." Pause. "Would you name them?"
"No... I'd count them."
"All of them? Take a long time, wouldn't it?"
"An eternity."
"You won't live that long."
"I know."
"You don't make sense to me."
"I think I do. You're vulnerable. You made me vulnerable like you. We
have a
connection."
"Connection, nothing, you little whore. I used you for a fuck, that's it."
"That doesn't hurt."
"What?"
"You're trying to hurt me. You've hurt me already, you can't do it again."
"Would you bet on that?"
"We have a connection."
"No. I could hurt you again. I could do what I did to you last night,
but I
could make you die, you wouldn't get the chance to live again." He
took a
drag off the cigarette. "I hurt you last night."
"Yes. You hurt me. But pain goes away, with time."
"What time? Time hasn't passed."
"Time is strange, it effects people, takes them over, does things to
their
minds. They forgive, they forget, they hate, they love."
He didn't answer.
"You agree with me."
"No. I could never agree with you."
"Why not? Do you hate me?"
"I don't feel anything for you. Live or die. Makes no difference to me."
"You're vulnerable."
"I'm strong."
"What do you want?"
"Nothing."
"Fine."
"Fine."
"I'm leaving..."
"So, go."
"You'll let me? You're not going to kill me?"
"It isn't necessary."
She nodded and turned to leave.
He watched her walk a few steps before calling out to her.
"What do you want?"
She stopped, turned, and bit her lip. She glanced at the sky and smiled.
"You know what I want."
"You want the moon and the sky...and the stars."
She left.
-----
Willow's eyes fluttered open. The ceiling was different, she tried
to move
her head but was struck with an intense pain. Her head throbbed, her
arms
were numb, everything hurt. Trying to raise a hand to her face, she
found
them bound tightly above her head.
Her surroundings were vague and unfamiliar. She was in a fairly large
room,
tied to an equally large bed. The window was sealed shut; nails haphazardly
hammered a black cloth to block out the sunlight. A single sheet was
draped
loosely over
her naked torso; her chest, plagued with bruises and bite marks, was
uncovered.
"You're awake." Spike entered the room, his body gleaming from an apparent
shower. A white towel was wrapped around his waist.
"You need to get cleaned up." He kneeled over her on the bed, inches
from
her beaten and blood-caked face. "And then you need to get out of here.
I
don't want the Slayer--"
"What happened?" Willow interrupted, pulling her one free hand from
it's
binding.
Spike chuckled coolly. "What? Don't remember? Guess I knocked you out
harder
than I thought. No worries, pet, you performed wonderfully, even
unconscious."
Willow moved her legs as he worked on the second knot. She felt the
searing
heat between her thighs and winced.
"Careful, luv, I got a bit carried away. Forgot you were human." He
pulled
the thick ropes away and sat back.
Willow examined her burnt and bleeding wrists. "Why did you do this to me?"
He smirked at the question, surveying his brutal handiwork. "Because I can."
"What do you want from me?" She drew a sore arm slowly to face, pushing
her
tangled and matted hair from her eyes.
"No, we're not hashing through this again. You were there."
"You said you'd let me go. In the cemetery."
"I said I wouldn't kill you. I couldn't resist taking you again."
"But why?"
"Enough." Spike growled, turning away from her. "Get up. You have to
take a
shower and leave before anyone notices you were gone."
Willow attempted to get up, shrinking back on the bed from the pain.
"I--I
can't."
"What?" He faced her. "You can't what?"
"I can't move. It hurts too much. I don't think I can walk."
For a split second in time, Willow thought she saw remorse in his eyes,
but
it was gone before she could think it through.
Spike sighed and walked over to the bed, easily scooping her tiny body
in
his arms. The sheet covering her slipped off, revealing more bruises
and
welts. A pain shot up her leg making her whimper and grab his shoulder
for
support. She quickly bit her lip and tried to shake off the tears.
It hurt
so much.
He looked at her trying not to cry, trying to be brave. Something flashed
through him. Something he hadn't felt in a long time. Something he
couldn't
place.
Willow rested her head on his shoulder as he carried her through the
large,
dark house. A symphony of woods composed the temporary home, everything
was
bare. Few chairs and tables scattered through the house. She tried
desperately to remember what had happened the night before. She recalled
turning to leave the cemetery, then strong hands grabbing her, she
saw the
moon as she fell to the cool ground.
Her eyes opened wide as flashes of the previous night passed in front
of her
eyes. Him standing over her, strong fists raining down at her, eyes
glowing
angrily. Taking her hard and fast, not giving her time to breathe.
The
flashes shot through her brain, but that's all they were, flashes.
She moaned in pain as he set her down in the bathroom, she stumbled
against
him on unsteady feet.
Spike grabbed her as she fell, instinctively supporting her tiny black
and
blue frame. Flashes of the night before vividly fired through his head.
Bright colors and sounds shook him. As soon as they started, they ended
and
he flew back to earth, back in the bathroom, cradling the pint-size
redhead.
"I'm okay. I think I can take it from here." Willow struggled, pulling
herself up and balancing herself weakly.
He nodded, disturbed by the vision-like memories that had struck him
like a
hammer. He backed out of the bathroom, shutting the door behind him.
Something inside of him jolted as he leaned against the door. A pain
like no
other ripped through his body. Unable to make a sound, he crumpled
to the
floor.
-----
-----
Spike
He pulled himself to his feet as the pangs subsided. Replacing the drooping
towel around his waist, he stumbled to his bedroom. Glancing at the
thick,
blood strewn ropes caused a sharp stabbing behind his eyes. He shook
his
head and opened the closet.
Willow
She stared at her reflection in the mirror. Her face was purple and
yellow,
a deep, dried gash etched on the left side. There were nail gouges
down her
neck, clawed around the marks of two very sharp teeth. Her entire body
resembled her face, she was barely recognisable, battered and used.
She
shakily turned the water on, staring as the steam clouded over her
mirror
image.
Spike
Pulling on a fitted black sweater, he walked across the room to the
dresser.
He had left the mirror hanging on the wall when he had killed the previous
tenants of the house. Just for kicks. Spike smoothed his hair back,
glancing
in the mirror as he always did. There was nothing.
Willow
Willow gingerly lifted her leg and stepped into the shower. The hot
water
stung her injuries, rapidly increasing the pain. She cried out.
Spike
His head snapped up as he heard the call from the bathroom. Out of the
corner of his eye, he saw something in the mirror, his own reflection.
His
piercing eyes and platinum hair flashed before him.
Willow
She cleaned her wounds as best she could, the water reddening and numbing
her. The pain between her legs was vicious, she felt as if she had
been
ripped apart. Willow cringed as her wrists met the boiling water, her
eyes
cast down at the rope burns wrapped around her arms. The skin had been
worn
raw from her struggles. Another flash came over her, she didn't see
herself,
she saw him, unlike she had ever seen him before. But there were two,
almost
as if one was a reflection of the other.
Spike
"This is bullshit." He mumbled, reaching for a cigarette, he lit it
quickly
and drew it to his lips. "I don't have a bloody reflection." He eased
back
on the bed, pushing the ropes out of the way. As his fingers touched
the
bindings, a shimmer passed over his eyes. He saw two wrists, blistered
and
raw, water cascading over them.
Willow
The knots in her neck pulled as she tilted her head back to rinse the
soap
from her hair. The suds rolled down her back, stinging the slashes
delineated in her flesh. The pain had tapered off some, but it had
become
part of her, expected. Willow reached behind her and twisted the water
off.
She stood for a moment, waves of dizziness washed over her. She reached
out
for the smooth, ceramic wall to balance herself.
Spike
He dragged the razor across his chin, he had long since memorised the
contours of his face. He gazed at the emptiness in the mirror, part
of him
hoping the flash would appear again, the chance to see himself, to
be sure
he even existed. A ripple of dizziness disrupted his equilibrium, his
left
foot poised himself as the light-headedness passed. The razor cut into
Spike's cheek and he reached up to wipe away the drop of blood.
Willow
Her reflection was worse than it had been. Her skin, blotchy and red
from
the water. She pushed her dripping hair behind her ears, examining
her
damaged face. She sighed, she couldn't think like this. Nothing was
right.
"I think he might have smacked a few things loose in there." She said,
tapping her bruised temple. Something caught Willow's attention in
the
mirror. She reached up to dab at it, brow furrowed with confusion.
Her
whisper dropped suddenly on the cool, crisp tile. "What the--" She
stared
down at the fresh drop of blood on the tip of her finger.
-----
-----
Willow limped delicately back to the master bedroom, holding a small
towel
in front of her, the rough material too painful on her wounds. Strange
things had been happening that morning, the blood, the flashes, she
couldn't
figure it out.
Spike was sitting on the bed with his back to the door when she entered
the
room. He was holding a hand to the side of the face, just staring into
space.
"Uh...do you have any aspirin or maybe a gun so I can just shoot myself
now?" She rolled her eyes at her own inappropriate joke. This guy had
beat
and raped her...twice and she was asking for aspirin.
"No." He replied, his voice frail.
"Right, why would you, I mean, you don't need it." Willow nodded.
"It's not that. I can't swallow pills. I was always afraid to choke
on
them."
Willow's face contorted, painfully, trying to stifle laughter. "Mmm."
She stood waiting for him to say something, or even look at her. When
he
didn't, she continued.
"I'll be out of your way if you could, uh..."
He turned his head in her direction. "I'm not going to."
"Not going to what?"
"Apologise."
"Actually, I was going more for pants."
Spike stood and pointed to a chair behind her, she glanced at her clothes
folded neatly on the wooden chair. Granted, they were blood stained
and
ripped, but they were tucked immaculately together.
Willow picked up her clothes and sat on the bed with them, she wrapped
the
towel gently around her shoulders to conceal her naked body. Her skirt
had a
tear up the side, but was still wearable, she unfolded it and bent
to lift
her feet into it.
A strange feeling came over Spike, the same he had earlier. He reached
over
and pulled the towel off her, staring at the deep wounds crisscrossed
over
her back.
Willow felt the towel fall from her shoulders, she watched Spike out
of the
corner of her eye, curious.
He touched his fingers to the scars, the feeling came back again, stronger.
He couldn't place it. It was an unfamiliar sensation that made his
skin
crawl.
She winced at his touch, arching her back, pulling away from the contact.
He
snapped his hand back.
"No." He voiced harshly. What he had felt was remorse, regret, sympathy
for
the battered girl. It made him angry, enraged. He lashed out at her,
striking the side of her head, sending her rolling off the bed to the
hard
wood floor with a sickening crack.
She whimpered pulling her knees tightly to her chest. "No, no, no."
She
cried.
"You." He glared down at her. He raised a powerful arm to hit her, but
felt
himself falling, falling slowly, as if time had tripled and every second
lasted an hour. He landed on the floor solidly.
Willow backed away from the shaking creature, afraid to be near him,
she
climbed on the bed, wrapping her fragile body in the soft sheets.
Spike stood, stumbling back against the chair, but regaining his balance.
He
growled at the trembling girl. The chair was thrust over his head and
thrown
at her. Willow backed away, but caught the splintered wood in the hip.
As she weakened, Spike felt the power surge through him again. He climbed
on
the bed, forcing her under him. Her pussy has been abused, the skin
torn and
bloody. He grabbed at her breasts, yanking at the tender flesh. She
screamed
in agony, the pain shooting up and down her body. He reached down and
claimed her bruised lips with his, savagely pressing against her, trying
to
recreate a passion.
The colors and flashes of light ran rampant in front of his eyes. Images
of
blood and brutality plagued him, screaming at him, possessing him.
Bright
spectrums of pain and agony took over. He forced the pain upon Willow,
striking her face, banging her lithe arms against the solid wood, scratching
sharp fingernails over her abdomen, carving his anguish into her.
The sounds blared inside his head, horrible screeches of torment and
capture. He yelled in torture. The colors swirled around him, moving
his
abusing hands. The renderings became more and more violent and vivid.
Spike
delivered one final, inhuman blow to Willow's head and collapsed as
the
noise halted abruptly. He fell off the girl and rolled over, chest
heaving,
eyes searching the ceiling wildly.
He glanced over at the girl, unmoving beside him, blood dripped from
the
side of her head, her mouth had swollen twice it's size and was tinted
a
hideous purplish red. A chunk of her beautiful red locks had been ripped
from her head and lay next to her on the pillow.
Spike stared at her, mangled and crushed. He could hear her heartbeat,
faint, but beating in her chest.
A pain rose from his lungs through his chest. Something happened. A
strange
sensation swept over him, different from the others.
He breathed.
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